Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Dont Give Up

Just read this quote and it hit home with me:

"Ninety percent of those who fail are not actually defeated. They simply quit."  Paul J. Meyer

Why does this hit home? Because I have spent most of my life quitting because I was so afraid of failing.  One of my biggest fears in life is failing.  Trying my best at something and not succeeding. I am a perfectionist at the core, so although my house would not tell you that...I expect perfection from myself in nearly every area of life.   I thank the Lord for giving me my two precious babies because motherhood has taught me that I can NEVER be perfect. No matter how hard I try to control all the variables in my life, you cant control your children.  You cant control when and how long they sleep in the beginning or whether or not they will spit up 400x a day...which both of mine were GREAT at! All that to say, I am thankful for the gift of motherhood for teaching me so many things, and most importantly motherhood has taught me how gracious the Lord is for loving me in spite of all my craziness.  I never quite understood how God could REALLY unconditionally love me. It sounded good and I knew it was truth, but until I experienced the truly unending, unexplainable, unconditional love I have for my children...I began to see Gods love a little more clearly.   Munchkin is now 3 and the defiant attitude has become even stronger, and even on the WORST days there is nothing more I want to do that have her snuggle in my arms and let me tell her how much I love her. (that is if she will let me love on her!! :) )
Ok so that was a big tangent... but the thing I realized this morning is now much this concept has changed my life.
My life really has been dominated my things that "could have been" or "should have been" but I chose to quit because it was easier than standing strong and being committed to the process.  Whatever the process may be that the Lord is walking you through, my encouragement would be DONT QUIT!!
My eyes are filling with tears and I write this because my heart breaks and I watch people walk away from all that could have been because it got too tough. Or parents who don't want to fail as parents, but they choose to quit disciplining and teaching obedience to avoid the conflict that comes with the process. Marriage is tough, but push through, communicate, and DONT QUIT. Your health IS worth it. Losing weight, getting healthy, improving your food choices is not easy, but its worth it. YOU are worth it.
As I said before, I have either quit or chosen to not start SOOO many things in life to avoid the risk of failure.  This again brings me to tears because there are days I wish I could have learned this lesson sooner.  I am beyond grateful that the Lord took me through this process and allowed me the strength to stand strong and push through at this point in my life so that I can be the best mommy to these sweet babies the Lord has entrusted me with.  That I can be the best wife now and move forward knowing that my marriage is only going to be as good as I want it to me. I have the choice to be positive or negative, and encourager or a defeater to this man God gave me.

Ok, so I keep getting distracted from my whole point that I want to express which is this:
For many that means buckle down and fight hard to protect or mend areas of your life that are broken. For me it actually was a little different and it meant go START.  Do something, ANYTHING. But commit to something and enjoy the process.  It may not be easy, but it will be worth it.

Its silly to me that my journey really began and I committed to getting myself healthy. Looking back I wanna laugh that its what changed my mindset but as I hunkered down and committed to eating healthy and improving my health, I began to get results.  In a way I had not really committed to doing something in so long that the sense of accomplishment I was getting from working hard and getting results was amazing.  I committed to the process, and achieved success. I could have quit day 4 when we went out to eat at a mexican restaurant and I bombed my healthy eating plan...but I started fresh the next day and saw the process through.
I was challenged my some dear friends to start reading more. HOLY COW reading has changed so much of my perspective on so many things. Some of my favorites to date are John Maxwells "Be All You Can Be" and Andy Andrews "Mastering the Seven Decisions."

I have realized that we all are given the choice each and every day to choose what our lives are going to look like. Circumstances change, life throws us curve balls, the waves threaten to over turn our lifeboat but graciously as some fisherman 2000 years ago claimed "who is this, that even the wind and the waves obey him?"  God is in control and He wants to take control of your life and help you become all that He created you to be.
So where to start? I dont know!! haha :) I would say make a decision today to never give up. Dont quit in whatever battle you are fighting.  Choose to be better today than you were yesterday. Start NOW.